Of course I have considered these things before. These are some of the reasons why sometimes I find myself denying that I am Bipolar. I tell myself that I can get over this on my own, that is just a matter of courage and strength. It is this kind of distorted thinking that always gets me in trouble. This ultimately interferes with my treatment, I might even become non compliant. It is very dangerous.
I try my best to ignore these comments from people that I know mean well but are unknowingly perpetuating the same mental health stigma.
I try very hard to remind myself that perhaps the courage and the strength come from my decision to fight( because it is a choice), during the highs and the lows, during the horrible episodes. I have to remind myself that perhaps what makes me strong is my relentless effort to keep fighting , always trying to do just a little better each time, no matter how bad it gets.
Other times though, I hear that it is all in my head ( the pain, the emptiness, the oppressing darkness)and that I just need to be strong and I can't help but feeling so utterly lost and hopeless. Sometimes I can't help but wonder : why can't I just get over this?